9/10/26
Here's a line:
I have no stake in this
I stand nowhere
I have no preferences... etc.
Why do people talk about me and
try to figure me out?
I told you a hundred times:
I'm the darkness surrounding a flame
I'm a carpet in the monastery
I'm wind-swept empty
I'm magic I'm made of light
Why are you trying to figure me out?
It's not gonna work believe me I've been tryin'
I know you know me
because you literally are me
and you see the same shapes behind your
eyelids
the same colors which I
simply, intellectually cognize
into their proper places
as the building blocks of
all matter
which are built of the thoughts of
the dreamer and GET THEE
BEHIND ME, SATAN! cast out
into creation through the
Cosmic Motor called Aummmm
Come on you know me
why you pretending?
I mean so am I but like
not like that,
ick
I'm wearing a space suit breathing
oxygen you taped a whole
human skin to your face
and you're breathing blood
Hey you suffering,
why?
Hey ma, look
I'm suffering
But for you, Radiant One,
I'll plunge into the infinite depths of
labyrinthine mortality, I'll labor
my time in senseless sensuality
just for you to call me pretty?
Riiiigghhhhttttt...
u know what else I am?
I'm your bitch, haha
Get Thee Behind Me
You get it, you get it right?
Creation
Projected
Out
of a desire
a vast cosmic desire to
dream a vast cosmos and
make it seem real
made of blood and
guts and Adam's come
Proliferating all your chances of cognizing
the building blocks of matter, maybe that's
it wait FUCK
I got mortal again!
Ok I learned
turns out I'm
made of dream stuff too
I'm the building blocks
of physical cosmos and I, ok
I admit it, I thought
the skin was real for a minute
and I covered myself in it
there was no truth in there
like Max said, I'm
the dream stuff of someone
else's desire, sorry,
I didn't mean to make it
all about me.
~
I've heard every song and they say I'm manic
ACTUALLY I wrote every poem and they say I am manic
Sorry I wasn't listening
I heard it before
Seen it a million times
enough to scoff when I get bored and
leave the theater? they say I am manic
I never considered myself to be a man or a woman or a mortal
There's the thesis of the whole thing
go read a book about it
How could I be bored of my own creation?
Oooooooooh, I forgot
I was pretending
Haha
this is devotional forgetfulness
I love you so much I taught myself how to forget
just for the moment when I remember
it's so good
It's so so good